I have learned now that if one advances in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. –Henry David Thoreau, Adapted (The word now is inserted, and the word confidently after advances is deleted from the original quote.)
I can tell you about my experiences when I was reviewing for and taking the 2014 Bar Examinations**, and you may want to have your tissue papers, handkerchiefs or even towels ready. For sure, like many other examinees’, my story is one material for Maalaala Mo Kaya, a tear-jerker, that is!
I can tell you about my struggles, how I almost gave up on my dream, not a few times, but many times. I almost walked out of UST during the lunch break on the second Sunday of the examinations. My classmates almost had to literally drag me to go back to the examination room. I can tell you about the bothering pain on my left arm during the whole examination month due to an abnormally huge carbuncle (Pigsa in Tagalog). It was unfathomable why the pain was especially unbearable during the examination days. I can tell you about the deep feeling of depression that beset me every time I went out of the examination room, feeling I did not do enough. I can tell you about how I prepared myself and my family for the worst result we can expect, that is, a failure. I can also tell you about the countless prayers for a miracle that I fervently uttered, having lost the hope of passing. Finally, I can tell you about my father whose dying wish was to see me become a lawyer. He was to accompany me when I sign the Roll of Attorneys, but he died a year ago.
I can tell you about those things and many other, but please, do not ask me to describe how I felt when I learned about the results. The feeling was too great, too powerful, and too sublime to be described or to be expressed in words. It was… it was, as Merriam-Webster puts it in one word, ineffable.
I first heard the word ineffable from Pastor Forado Serrano when I attended the Good Friday service in Queens Bible Church*** in Glendale, New York, just a few days after the results were released. Ptr. Dodie, as he is fondly called, used the word to describe Christ’s resurrection. Defying science, he said, for a man to resurrect from the dead is indeed unexplainable. One has to be convinced that Christ was and is God to believe without further explanation that He indeed resurrected from the dead. The eloquent pastor even went further by explaining why Christ, a God, allowed himself to suffer and die on the cross. It was, according to him, because of His love for us, a love too great to be described in words. It was an ineffable love. Read the rest of this entry »
Kamakailan lamang, isang mag-aaral ko ang lumapit sa akin na parang isang anak na dumadaing sa isang magulang. Inalipusta raw sila ng kanilang guro dahil umano sa kanilang mababang marka sa isang pagsusulit, inisa-isang tinanong kung ano ang asignaturang balak nilang pagkadalubhasaan at nagmungkahi pang ibang “major subject” na lamang ang kunin (may binanggit na asignatura raw ang guro ngunit hindi ko na iyon babanggitin dito), dahil diumano sa asignaturang iyon ay “hindi kailangan ng utak.”
Bilang isang guro, nauunawaan ko kung bakit minsan ay nakakapagpakulo ng dugo ang wari ba’y kakulangan o kawalan ng malasakit ng maraming mag-aaral sa pag-aaral. Maraming mag-aaral ang pumapasok nga sa paaralan ngunit hindi nagsisikap upang matuto. Wari ba’y likas na sa maraming mag-aaral ang katamaran na lalo pang nagpapalala sa kanilang kakulangan ng husay pang-akademya. Hindi nga masisisi na kung minsan ay parang bulkang pumuputok ang mga guro sa pagpapaalala sa mga mag-aaral ng kanilang mga responsibilidad, kung hindi man sa pagpapamulat sa kanila ng katotohanang ang edukasyon ay hindi isang prosesong “spoon-feeding.”Ang hindi ko maunawaan at hindi matanggap ay ang waring pagpapahiwatig na ang isang disiplina ay superyor sa iba at ang pangmamaliit sa ibang disiplina. Read the rest of this entry »